Let's get the weekly part of the post out of the way, because I have a thought to blog about. So, the weekend was the last really relaxing weekend for a while; from now on it's larpmonth! Which is why I'm not really counting to get any writing done this month. We have Legend Falls first and I expect that to be relaxing for me, because my character is very laid-back, and a lot of fun for Hubbie, because he got some cool NPC roles. Then we have Maerquin, full of exciting death threats and drama. And finally Charm, which could swing either way, I'm not sure yet.

Anyway, this weekend started with my usual trip to Rotterdam. Then on Friday we had a Halloween-themed Pathfinder session, in which the heroes slew plague zombies/ghouls. Saturday I played one of my favourite boardgames with some friends from across the country and in the evening we went to the Leijenhorst Halloween party. I spent Sunday in Tyria, alternately exploring a rather dangerous lv 65 area, and starting a new character with a friend.

On this week's menu: first I'm going to have to clean the house. I should have done that yesterday, but Tyria was too much fun. So today it is. The costume room needs cleaning up too; I just dumped my junk in there after the last Maerquin adventure and haven't touched it since. So that's on the to-do-list too. Good thing too, so I can review my costume for Legend Falls. My character for Omen/Drachenfest has been retired, which means I can use some of those clothes, after I remove the military emblems. Then there's Shadowrun, and I'll have to cook a big pan of pasta for the players. No trip to Rotterdam this week, because Legend Falls!

So, now I can get to what's on my mind. In Dutch, the words happy and lucky are one and the same. Gelukkig. That's how I feel right now. I know I'm not in the best place of my life, still dealing with the infertility issue, but I feel I have a lot to be thankful for. I wrote that the infertility and the sadness that came with it alienated me and my husband. What I didn't write there is that we're aware of that now.

Every time we open up to each other now, every bit of quality time, we're happy and thankful. It feels like such a long time ago that we did this together. Our relationship and sex life have never been as good as this before, and the contrast with the past year is striking and a little frightening. We never want to grow apart and take each other for granted like that anymore. We want to be loving each other like this until the day we die.

I feel happy with everything I have, my Hubbie, Lanzaned, my friends, my nice house, my comfortable financial situation, my wonderful hobbies. I'm lucky, priviliged, I have so many things other people have to do without, sometimes I feel don't deserve them, but they're mine all the same.

Ik ben gelukkig.