I already told you I suddenly have my morning-person ability to wake up at seven without an alarm clock back. Well, it's not just that.

I seem to be in shape. Nokey and I trudged through the woods, at a comfortable pace for him, and I kept up without going out of breath, for what? At least half an hour. I can walk for hours, I can even run, without getting really tired. I get sweaty and a little light-headed, but not out of breath, omg-it-aches-tired.

Also, all my trousers are too big. And I managed to squeeze myself into a pair of very pretty Black Milk leggings. My scale broke down ages ago, and frankly I don't care how much I weigh. The intuitive eating thing is paying off: I eat what I want, when I want and I feel great.

Strangely enough, my hair and fingernails are not as happy. They grow at strange angles and break a lot. And my blood sugar is giving me faint moments where I have to sit down before I fall down.

Mentally... I really don't know. The anticonception is giving me moodswings and my wonky blood sugar doesn't help there either. I'm generally happy, but I can have these sudden moments where my sense of humour abandons me and I feel the need to tell people how immensely insensitive they're being. Or when my ability to put things into perspective just disappears and I feel entirely hopeless about everything.

But generally happy and full of energy. As if I've reverted to the Nath I used to be years ago, before my marriage. Hubbie is a little wary of this development and reacts by being overly careful with me. I guess I give off that vulnerable vibe again...

I often wonder whether this is a good development or not. As said, generally happy and energetic seems like a good sign, but those moodswings... They're not just caused by the hormones. I used to be a lot more unstable before I met Hubbie, and this complicated tangle of emotions, empathy and intuition has both good and bad sides to it.

I'm growing again and it's sort of new and weird. I'm learning to say no, to stop myself before I go where I don't want to go, and to handle others better. You may need to reevaluate whether you still like the new Nath.